Busy, busy bee.

Hello, you.

This semester has been a whirlwind of activity and my life has possibly never been so hectic. Here I sit, in front of my computer on an early Saturday evening, listening to the "Once" soundtrack, thinking about the paper I have yet to start. And thinking about how I should be applying to jobs for when I graduate in December. This has been a rough year, so far. But I'm powering through and I know that I'm going to make it out alive. Sometimes, it's not easy to see that. But I just have to believe it and know that if I just get through one more paper, one more test, one more meeting, I'm that much closer to accomplishing one of the biggest challenges in my life so far: college.

I'm not trying to be a Debbie Downer, but you all know how it feels to get busy and be under stress and low on energy. That's just how I'm feeling right now. I was in a car accident on Tuesday night. Someone barrelled into my lane, hit me head-on, and drove away. So I've been having a tough time and haven't had my car. But this is just one of those times that I have to be strong, you know? College can be tough because your parents aren't here to put the pieces together when something has gone wrong. My mum has done this anyway, to a large degree, in the wake of my car accident. But she can't be here to give me hugs and whispers of encouragement in my ear right now. I have to give these things to myself ... you know what I mean. I have to be my own strength and encouragement.

It's one of those things that I've learned in college. I'm not a very emotionally strong person, but college has definitely made me stronger than I was before. Forced independence can be scary, but it just helps you to grow. I've grown, a lot. And this stupid car accident business has forced me to grow even more. But I don't regret the fact that I've had to help myself get out of my little rut. It makes me feel powerful to know that I can overcome something as scary as having my car almost totalled with me in it.

So I'm sorry if this entry is not the most chipper, but I feel like a very important thing to learn about going away to school is how strong it will make you.

Peace, always.
Alex

Two very important people: Mom and Stephanie, in Cape Cod this summer.

Comments

[Caitlin]

im glad you're OK! hang in there kiddo :)