Quick post on the day's events!
As I walked from Roncalli down the Hawley Lounge to hear the results of the 2013 class board, I could barely breathe and i could feel my heart pounding in my throat. The red and yellow leaves crunched hard underneath my feet as the oddly warm breeze dragged me down the hill. Half way to the bottom, I grabbed the bracelet on my left wrist I made on retreat and like the flip of a switch, I heard the church bells ringing. It was like when you put on pajamas right out of the dryer or when you open the door to your house after a long day and you're met with the sweet aroma of cookies right out of the oven, the church bells hit my ear drums and i felt happier, safer, more grounded. Each step prior took effort to make but this desire all of a sudden came over me to keep walking, to keep moving. I got where I was headed, but it was then that I literally stopped feeling. My breath shortened, my toes curled and my every limb shook. I tried the best to conceal what was happening but when I am under pressure, starting at my head and running to my toes like one big splash of hot water I become emotionless, I feel uncomfortably drained and grossly irritable. I sat there. The smell of the food being served made me want to vomit and I could not stop fidgeting. At moments like that I would rather hide in my room all alone with out anyone. The thought at at any moment Kelly would announce the results ran through my mind every second. The only thing I could think to do was hold my bracelet. I wanted so bad for my friend Gina, from home to be there. She being a person who knows me so well would know exactly what to say, how to focus my thoughts and how to rid the sickening hott mess I was becoming minute after minute. In my head, along with the thought of what was coming, I attempted to replay the bells. Over and over again I felt myself inverting so far into myself, I missed entire conversations. When I started this whole process, I didnt even pick the packet up on time, I wasnt even going to run. And then I was there, at my worst point, waiting for it to just be over. She finally stood up and announced she was going to begin with the 4 senators, which is what I ran for. One name after the other...until the very last one. At that point, i turned my head down, grabbed my phone, took a deep breath and prepared myself for the hard hit I thought I was going to get when I didnt hear my name. But there it was, she said it. "Mia James". I got up and walked over, got the planner and walked back. I was again, emotionless. I finally collected my thoughts and smiled. Its one of those moments where you realize the reality of everything. Winning and losing. That moment will be so minute 25 years from now but in that moment, it meant everything. The beginning is not always easy and the during the journey, sometimes its hard to see where you might land but the greatest gift of all is where it takes you.
Top Five!
1. Senate =]
2. Friendly's Ice Cream
3. Leopard Print Border in my room!
4. Videos from friends at home.
5. Smiling.
What's yours?
1) Illinois
2) Thanksgiving
3) Ryan Reynolds
4) Cancelled Italian classes
5) Not Having an 8 am tomorrow
Posted by: Katie | October 23, 2009 at 12:14 AM
1. Sleep.
2. The beginning of the Late Late Show with Craig Ferguson in 7 minutes.
3. The prospect of a good day of work tomorrow.
4. The weekend is very close.
5. Late night chats in the chapel.
Posted by: Sam | October 23, 2009 at 12:31 AM
1. Election stress being over!
2. Chinese food
3. Boston tomorrow
4. Video chatting with friends from home
5. Finding my ID on the couch!
Posted by: Kathryn Artesani | October 23, 2009 at 11:49 PM
1) Your Birthday
2) Your Birthday
3) Your Birthday
4) Your Birthday
5) Your Birthday
Posted by: PC | October 27, 2009 at 08:54 AM
1. nothing
2. nothing
3. nothing
4. nothing
5. nothing
Posted by: CT | October 28, 2009 at 12:38 AM
1. Club Lax
2. Phillies losing the Series
3. My Car
4. head getting scratched
5. Penny
Posted by: CT | October 28, 2009 at 12:45 AM