Hello All-
For many this blog is a useful tool and used as an insight as to the typical life of a college student at Sacred Heart University. However tonight I'm going to turn to the tables and use all of you. So bare with me as this might not be as eloquently written as most of my blogs.
Life and love seem to go hand in hand. As children we love our mommys and daddys our stuff animals and our preschool play friends. When we get older we grow into that puppy love stage of high school where we think that the first person who holds our hand or kisses us is going to be the we'll be with forever. Then as adults we face the toughest challenge love throws at us, "real love". I say real love because this is the type of relationship where we care so deeply about another person that the lines between us and them become blurred. You experience the ups and downs of a relationship and all the while grow not only to love the person for who they are but also love them for all the areas they fall short in.
When that love goes away and that person leaves, you're left with a void in your heart, a place where you can feel the darkness and despair and the thought of the pain and emptiness that will linger for weeks, months years etc, overwhelm you to the point where you can't even breath anymore. That's the pain I'm currently dealing with, and trying to balance that feeling of loneliness and utter loss with accomplishing work and putting on a brave face is one of the toughest life challenges any of us will ever face.
I wonder what the right next step is? Is it to cry and let out everything that's inside? Is it to put it aside and try to fill that void with meaningless tasks? Kahlil Gibran once wrote; 'You're reason and your passion are the rudder.. and the sails of your seafaring soul. If either be broken, you can but toss and drift, or else be held at a standstill in mid-seas." How do you get by when the passion and the light of your life has been put out? That my friends is the challenge of life that no school lesson can teach you.
